I’ve been living in this blurry state of present and past since the death of my grandpa. Some of my favorite faded memories–the people and places I visited and spent time with as a child, have been occupying my present. I’ve seen more family in the past week than I have in decades. With the exception of traveling to a soccer game, I’ve traveled more in the past week than I have in I don’t remember when. It has been good…this blending of past and present.
It has been so good to see strong family bonds do exist through the years. It has filled my heart and the hearts of my children to be among family; to swim with cousins we didn’t know we had, the sit on a hot, breezy back porch and reminisce about thirty years ago, to be loved and welcomed into one of the tightest family units I have ever seen.
We continue to mourn the loss of my grandpa and pray for my grandma. We strive ahead in these new relationships I thought were long gone only to realize they were just waiting for the right time. As a very beautiful soul told me as she me tight the other day, “I wish things had been different but God had His plans.” His plans now include a whole new family we didn’t know we were missing out on; a new set of relationships that bear the mark of old comfortable ones.
Please continue to pray with me for my grandpa and pray for my grandma still here. Please thank God with me that what I thought was lost has been found.